Lost a Friend

I got an SMS – It read so and so passed away. My heart stopped and skipped reading the SMS. Just 2 weeks ago the same scenario. A deja-vu. What’s it like when you get an SMS reading the death of a friend. What’s it like when you realise the friends are much younger than you? Have you ever wondered if God is fair to all? I’ve wondered and pondered almost all my life ever since my late brother was called by Him.
I just don’t know how to puzzle this death thing, put it all together behind me and move on. When will it be my turn? Am I prepared? How would my loved ones feel or go thru’ this nightmare. Is it true the dead move to another world? A purgatory or even an ever-lasting sanctuary. Or is it true we die and reborn as or into something else. Gosshh...all this questions popped up when I lost a familiar dear colleague 7 years younger than me leaving behind 2 kids and one on the way. My condolences.