Antisocial...

Antisocial - that's the exact remark I got branded after meeting-up with an ex-colleague of mine some time ago. The last time we met and spoke was like four and a half years ago (heheh). It was while we were colleagues back in 2004. This sounds strange to me becasue we live like half an hour's drive from our homes. I can see her reading this with anger vibes...if at all she reads this.

I do not blame her for rebranding me for my lame disappearing act for it was I who chose to remain anonymous for a long time.

She is one ex-colleague of mine who has a good side to her nature. She makes it a point to meet all her friends no matter where they are or wat-so-ever they had become of. The good nature in her augurs too well at times. But I can't say the same of myself as at times I remain "anti-social." And here I'm thinking absence makes the heart grow fonder...Yukssss....

In reality I'm not anti-social. I do admit some may perceive me as that. After leaving the "banking" environment, as in most-often-than-not cases, the get-together social scene culminated into a natural death thing.

But the sadder part to this reality is that, she believes I was antisocial only to her which I wholesomely rebuke. In reality, many of my so-called ex-colleagues and past friends, even my child hood friends have moved on to enrich their personal lives. They too have taken this anitsocial panacea like vitamins. More-so I just don't fancy the idea of trodding into their space or privacy after a bloody long hiatus. Could this meet-up-void add up to the anti-social conundrum?

When I 'balik-kampung', I realise those close to me then as friends and those who can even judge me coming a mile away have begun to play the Houdini Act. Some pretend they never knew me tho' we were classmates. Some look at me like I'm from a different era of time or space. Maybe I'm. One even sat at the table beside me (opposite) in a restaurant but made sure he looked every nook and corner of the eatery except at me. Strange.

I do admit I'm not the person who will get up and greet someone. A lame trait in me. Greetings had never augured well for me. I'm what people might say selfish, or pretentious. I don't know. If you know me, you go figure that out.

Coming back to reality, is anti-social a disease of humans? Is it curable? Or even so is it malignant? I really don't know. But what I do know for sure is...there are more antisocial people around me than all the positive vibes I have over them.

I rest my argument.

Thank you for reading.